So... about my life

Life has been smiling at me for the past 2 years. I felt I had everything I ever wished for. A nice house, a loving boyfriend, a good job, a bright future. A week and a half ago, this drastically changed. I found out my loving boyfriend had cyber-cheated on me. The question that has been bothering me since then has been, the yet unanswered, WHY. Why did this happen to me? What did I do wrong? It feels as if the universe is punishing me for something. The weather seems to adjust itself to my mood, or does my mood adjust to the weather?
The cat seems to sense my depressed mood and came to see if I was okay, lovely creatures.

The thing about humans that keeps me baffled is our nature to hurt one another. And not just one another, but everyone around us. A friend told me about their mum's cat getting molested and it broke my heart. How can people be so cruel to a kind creature like that? I myself am too afraid to let my cats outside on the balcony in fear they might fall off.

I love this world with all my heart, including all that live on it. But sometimes this world breaks my heart so much I wonder why I came here. People can be such bastards. I so badly want to understand people, what moves them, makes them do the things they do? Therapy has taught me I cannot understand all people, I may ask them to tell me, but sometimes they won't want to tell, or it's better not to ask. I cannot control what other people do. I can control my own actions and my own life up to a point. All I can do is try to be the best human I can, but how can I when I don't understand what Being Human exactly is? I sometimes feel I missed a class at school, teaching me what Human Life is supposed to be. I learned about the human body, though mine seems to have missed the memo how to behave as well, I learned about the human psyche but found out that every person is an exception to the rules. People are SO weird!

Please save me from this world.

                                                                     ~Cinderella~