Sometimes I ponder the things I do daily. How can it be I cannot get myself to do certain things, while I'm sure I'll be better if I do? Like cleaning the house,have been trying this for weeks, the place gets filthier and filthier, but I can't seem to find the energy to do it. Another thing is sport. I really have to work out, my body tells me I have to. I've been telling myself this for weeks. Have I gone to Zumba classes? Of course not. I did look up a place where to go, just have to GO. I tell myself I am too busy, but with what? Work? Only work 3 days this week, no excuse. So instead I just sleep so long I simply cannot do it. Woke up at 12, have to work at 14:30. So need to shower and eat and tend to my bird. And also write this nonsense on the web of course. I always have time to write ^^

And now for something completely different.

Did I mention I have the most amazing boyfriend I could ever imagine?! I probably did mention.
It just kinda surprises me every time. How did it come to this, why now, why this way? Instead of asking questions I know I should just be thankful and enjoy the good times. But that's just not how I am. I'm always whining and nagging about stuff. And to be honest, I enjoy it.

But who knew a simple night hanging out could turn out to be so special. I'm really not sure how to describe it. Not sure I should share this feeling anyway. But I still want to write it down. However, if I cannot put words to it sufficiently, it may sound silly. I dislike the idea of this sounding silly.

It's just that, one one ever played beautiful, romantic music for me. Or danced with me on that music. Apparently it made me blush, afterwards when I was alone it made me cry. The whole realization that this guy, who I must've looked at a million times, thinking how cute and sexy and lovely he was, is now finally mine. And I no longer have to hide the way I look at him, loving, longing.
I've always told myself an old fashioned guy was hard to come by, knowing he was always the only one I knew. I've always wondered how it could be, a gentleman in modern times. He doesn't know I think this, I never told him. Come to think of it, I never told anyone. No one I ever told how much I loved him, and have for years.
The more I think of the whole thing, the weirder it becomes. It has never been my way to ignore feelings for someone, I always had to have them. How is it possible that with this one guy everything changed? All I ever did and thought. I know the answer of course, this is how it was meant to be. I first had to find my own way out of the prison I built for myself. Trapped inside my head, not a pretty place to live I can tell you. I came through my darkest times, into the sunlight. And there he was, shining even brighter than before.

I can honestly say, I'm happiest I've ever been.

To you, my love. My True Love


-  Cinderella