I've been wanting to write here since last night. But now that I opened my blog I have no idea what to put here.

I feel drained and gutted and just want to hide away from the world. I feel betrayed. 

Somewhat Ironic maybe. Is this how she felt when I just cut her off with no good reason? Probably karma then, getting back at me.

Am I really such a bad person then? Makes me wonder.

Should I allow myself to wallow in self-pity or should I just kick myself back into gear and get on with it? And how do I make that decison? 

So many questions and so little answers. I still don't really understand why you decided this. At least without telling me, without giving me a chance to understand or try to change. Does our friendship really mean that little to you?

The fact is, I may have projected my ideas and expectations on you and not looked at you for who you are, but tried to make you fit my idea of you. I shall have to think about this. 

The only certainty I have right now is the belief that life will run its course and everything happens for a reason. So I will have to move forward and believe that the reason for this will present itself to me in time. 

Time will tell.