And so we move on

So I decided I had to break up with my boyfriend.
I did so last week. The breakup was bad. No biggie, I'll get over is faster than he will. I saw it coming...

But here we are, a week later.
He said yesterday it's OK to make it official, so we put in on FB.
The first person to respond to it, within seconds, an old friend. Been friends with him nearly 10 years, see him once every 2 years maybe. Have had a thing for him since I met him.
And now I can't get him out of my mind.
I know this is probably my mind coping with the loss of my boyfriend, with whom I've been for 3 years.
But it doesn't make it less confusing to can't stop thinking about some other guy.

Yes I have had a crush on him for too long, and last time I saw him, I did hope he would tell me he liked me.
And yes, that is also about a year ago.
But the thing with this guy is, he can make me laugh as no other can, cheers me up when I'm down. But I really don't get him! I have no clue how me might possibly feel about me, and usually I'm pretty good at telling how people feel, it's my bloody job to!

So what to do now?
We agreed to date as soon as I've moved. And I can't stop thinking about that now, and I won't be moving for another 2 weeks. Enough time to drive myself clinically insane. Good thing my new house is near a psychiatric hospital... can get myself committed in to time.

But seriously,
how am I going to endure the torture my head is putting me through?!
I can't just go asking him, can I? I'd risk years of friendship for a possibility on a relationship I'm not even ready for. With a guy I apparently don't know well enough to read his feelings.

Ugh.

Cinderella out.